1.9 to go!!!

   Well a new post has been long overdue.  To catch y'all up, I had a mini vacation last weekend.  I went to the beach with Katie and we had lots of fun and got some exercise in while walking on the beach :) BTW I bought a new swim suit and it's a large!  YAY!! Then we had a healthy dinner out and headed back to Cola.  From there I went to Dad n Kim's for Easter.  I had a great night there and all day Sunday I was with them and Kim's family.  We hid eggs for Mac and Thomas to find and then Dad got out the four wheelers.  I have now discovered that I am a county girl all around :)  I absolutely love four-wheeling.  I took 2 rides with Dad and then I got on his and he followed me to make sure I was driving it right.  I wish we had stayed in the country when we lived in Easley because we SO would have done this on our acre of land.  Anyway back to the point of this blog...

    When I weighed on Sunday at Dad's house I hadn't lost any weight, I actually gained .2 of a pound. :(  I was kinda discouraged.  But the time with the family was a great encouragement as they all told me how good I looked and how healthy too.  I was encouraged but when I came home I decided to make some changes.  I'm going to only have 30 grams of fat a day.  That is 11 less than MFP gives me but I think cutting back on it would help me lose more weight.  I weighed today and I'm at 201.8.  Only 1.9 to go until I'm out of the 200 forever!!! YAY!!!  I never wanna see a 2 again unless it's my dress size. lol

5 to go to the first big goal!

So this morning I weighed and I have 5 left til my first reward goal.  I'm am going to go ahead and schedule my perm but I will not do it if the number isn't there.  It should work out to be on the week of my summer vacation so that is a good thing :)  As the pattern of depressing sundays continues, I have learned to expect it a little.  So after church I came home and made lunch then cleaned my room and tried to stay busy.  I have been thinking about several things all day but I kept working so that I wouldn't think about the feelings I was having.
I made it through to day and got to see my sister and nephew via skype!  It was fun and then I went to walmart to continue my organizing.  I've finished all seasons of Scrubs and I've cancelled netflix.  At least until I can decide on something else to watch.  For now I'll just watch free stuff on TV or hulu.  I'm off to bed and hoping for a great sunshiney day!

5 to go!!!

Rolls and Role Models

Tonight at dinner I was sitting with a great friend and we discussed all the things we've been through in our 20 something years of life.  We talked about God, relationships, family, and weight.  We ate a healthy dinner at Panera and talked for 3 hours.  WE talked about how to make consistent right choices and how to make your start count.  As we were talking I couldn't believe I was giving weight loss advice.  I mean I don't feel like I know enough to be telling anyone else how to make the changes but I think that's how God wants us to feel.  He wants us to feel inadequate to teach so that we know anything that comes from it is from HIM.  What a great lesson in just three hours of talking to a friend.  I had a great dinner with Haley and can't wait to see the upcoming months and see how much we both learn from this :)  And now to work out and then watch some scrubs :)

Sundays

I'm not really sure why but the past 2 Sundays have been quite depressing.  I think it's because I'm alone for most of the day minus the time that I'm at church.  Today in church Pastor talked about how we say God is not profitable.  I realized that I've been feeling the same way towards him.  Every time I think about my friends that are married or engaged I think God is keeping me from being happy.  Whenever I hear of a friend having a baby I think I'm missing something.  If I see and ex or even a picture of one I think that it's God's fault that I'm not with them or married or having kids.  I know that sounds harsh and when I think them I mean it in a harsh way but as I reread that statement I realize how true it is.  Let me say it a little differently.  It is with great thanks that I look to God and say THANK YOU for helping me to make the hard decision to end that relationship.  Thank you for saving me from the heart ache of a bad marriage and thank you for keeping me from having a child with someone other than the man that you have for me.  I was wallowing in self pity and staring at the Oreos when I saw a High school friend and we talked for about and hour.  We were talking about old friends and common friends we now have and didn't realize it.  It was a great hour of standing in walmart plus we got to help out a Hispanic lady :)  So thank you again Lord for pulling me out of my hole of pity and showing me what I have to be grateful for and why I am on this journey!  I'm off to bed I've got to be at work early!

Good Night Readers!!  Or should I say Good Morning??

Crazy but good!

Today started as a normal Thursday.  I got up and went to school.  Then went to Walmart and got gloves and a camera case because the case was SUPER cute and it was on sale and I don't have one already.  OK there are my three reasons.  I went by to see my boss and give her my last set of client keys :(   but we chatted for a few and she's amazing!  Then went to work for a few hours, I helped unload our truck which was great strength training!  and then after leaving work I picked up some healthy groceries and had a little Chinese for dinner.  I went to watch a movie with Lauren and we sat n talked then she said she was gonna work out but I was too tired.  She was doing the 30 day shred dvd that I recommended.  After the warm up and the first two sections of the first circuit I jumped in when the abs part came.  this is my worst area.  I am a pear I keep most of my weight in my stomach area and my thighs.  I measured myself yesterday and the results are not good.  After the first 15 pounds I've become a little complacent.  I know that I've got a lot more to lose but I'm really already feeling so good about myself.  Anyway back to the story... I did the abs and continued on through the rest of the dvd.  Thanks for getting me to work out Lauren!  I love you for encouraging me even when you don't know you are doing it!  Hopefully we can take a trip together soon!  I love spending time with you.

I'm really doing well on eating.  I've been consistently under my calorie goal and as long as I have at least 1200 it's OK.  if I'm a little under that I can just go grab a mint fudge creme cookie because it's only 60 calories and it knocks out 2 cravings :)  oreos n chocolate!  I'm getting into the habit of cooking for myself again.  Even though CFA isn't REALLY bad for you like other fast food places the sodium is high and that doesn't help the weight loss journey.  I'm gonna try to eat even less at CFA and make more healthy choices at home like tonight i bought ears of corn because they were on sale and I LOVE corn! I also bought spinach for my salads n super healthy dressing.  Being healthy isn't that hard once you start consistently making the better choices.


Thanks for reading!  Have a great day!

Great Start

Usually when I set a goal, it goes well for a few days and today is no different.  I worked out before school, had a healthy breakfast went to school, came home ate a healthy lunch layed out, then went walking and then went to work and now I'm watching my TV show and enjoying writing my blog.  I enjoyed working out this morning and my walk was good too but I need to get a better playlist, any Suggestions???  I'm off to bed!  Goodnight World!

Overindulgence

OK so today I ate WAY TOO many calories and I justified it because I'm on my period.  When I was putting in all the first 3 items I was munching on some Pringles and lost count so I guessed at how many I ate.  I was thinking of not putting all of it on there because I was SO embarrassed to admit to eating it all.  I thought I was making a good decision with the grilled chicken but the sauce and onion fries killed it.  I then continued to eat an Italian Ice from Rita's, some Pringles and 2 mint Oreo fudge cremes.  I officially hate myself today.

The great thing is that tomorrow is a new day and i'm gonna be up at 9 to et breakfast and workout before school.  I'll enjoy a nice salad to hold me through class until lunch.  Then After lunch i'm gonna work on some homework then have a healthy salad for dinner tomorrow night and i'll feel a lot better about my self after that!  I am SO glad that tomorrow I am not judged by my failures from today.  I can start fresh and go forward with my journey.

PS I am gonna try to walk about 2 or 3 miles 3 or 4 days a week to get ready for the 5k in 2 weeks.  Ask me about it!!! :)

I'm off to workout and then watch some scrubs :)

Friday Evening

This has been a long week.  I saw my sister leave for Virgina, I worked 30 hours and went to school.  I am trying to get into my routine of working out and after work I'm really tired.  I'm going to try to work out before work if I work after 8 PM.  I am also eating only the amount of calories Myfitnesspal tells me too I'm even eating a few less.  I am gonna win this contest with my Dad!

Myfitnesspal.com is such a great resource.  It helps me keep track of my calories and my workouts it's sets my daily caloric intake for me after I tell it my goals.  I really recommend this site.  it's free to join and you can add your friends and see what they are doing too!  It's a great motivator to see my friend Amy running so often.  I really need to get in shape for the 5K in 2 weeks. My goal is 35 minutes.  I am speed walking and I'm pretty sure it's gonna be a fun one to do.  It benefits Safe Harbor.  It is a great charity that gives battered women and children a safe place to go.  For more information go to safeharborrun.org.  It's only 25 dollars to register.  We have several people from work that are participating.  It's exciting to see CFA working for the community :)

My Skinny Jeans fit so well it's amazing.  I need to get them hemmed so I can wear them more often.  I am also going to be going shopping soon bc I need some new clothing items!  I bought some new running pants that have reflectors on them so in case I'm walking in the darker hours I will still be visible.  I'm really excited to fit into my smaller work pants.  I can zip them now but they are a little snug n work pants need to be a little loose for all the bending and squatting I do.

 I hope that all my readers are doing well. Let me know if you have any tips for toning under arm flab.  My arms are gaining muscle but that little fat at the bottom of my arm is still there.   I am also looking for ways to make sure what I'm eating is the best.  Right now I'm allowed 1240 calories and I often have extra calories at the end of the day so I reward my self with a little Dr Pepper but I would much rather eat something that would better serve the purpose of losing weight.  Any Suggestions?