Well I was supposed to be off today but work just called. God knew that I was heading down a path of pity and he is getting me out of it.
Today I was reading the emails that I exchanged with Dylan's mom and I just read the one where she told me that if He would have lived I would have been their daughter. That though kills me and it is so easy for me to get mad at God for taking that from me. I still have not met a man as perfect for me as Dylan! It kills me that right now we could be married and having kids and my present could be so different. I can't imagine a better way to spend my life than with him but since God took him home. I have to realize that I have someone out there even better than him and that's a hard thing to picture. Today is a little depressing but I'm gonna go shower and get ready for work and smile at all of my customers so that I can remember how good God is and get out of this depression.
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