Monday, June 16, 2014

As I get a little older

I don't know how much wiser I get. Lately I've noticed that people keep dying.  As I've grieve their loss I try very hard to see the blessing in their lives. But I'll admit my first reaction is anger. I get really mad that God would take him to heaven or give him cancer or place her in the path to be in a car wreck. Why can't other people who deserve bad things get cancer or die in a car wreck or a die suddenly? Why does it have to be these good people I know that love Jesus?!
The more I think about this I realize that we are all bad people that deserve more than cancer, we deserve death. We all deserve to spend and eternity in Hell for all of the bad things we've done. From a little white lie to murder we've all sinned and that makes us bad people. Just because I'm a Christian doesn't mean I'm perfect or don't sin, I'm still human but because of his sacrifice I don't have to be a slave to that urge. When I'm tempted, I can listen to Jesus instead. God brings those people home because there is more glory in their passing than their suffering.
My Uncle Ken was a great man! He loved Jesus so much! He never met a stranger and radiated the love of Jesus. He was taken to Heaven 6 years ago. I know it's hard to be here without him but I know that he left an amazing legacy behind. My best friend Dylan passed two weeks after Ken. Dylan was sick for a while and through his journey he was able to laugh and smile even when he was in pain. I hate that he's not here to laugh and goof off with me but I know he's got some great seats saved for me and his family when we get there too.  Troy was probably my favorite cousin on my dad's side. He found a way to relate to everyone on their level and love them. He showed me so much while he lived with us. He was taken home in a motorcycle wreck. I miss him and his jokes but I know I'll see him again too. Courtney was a good friend in High school. She and her husband served as youth pastor up North. They had just completed a week of youth camp and were about a mile away from the church when their bus lost control and killed her and her husband, she was also pregnant.  Their family of four is now only one here on Earth. This is still hard for me to see how it's good sometimes; but I know that because of their bravery students were protected and they left a great legacy too. Kyle died in October of 2013. He's my best friend's brother and we weren't really close but I know that at his funeral 7 people met Jesus and THAT'S a great purpose! Tony died a week or so after Kyle and he touched my lives in my FUSE Family. He had such passion for serving students and showed how to be all in for Jesus. JJ died a week and a half ago. He was diagnosed with cancer and he showed strength and love the whole time even when he knew he didn't have long. He always pointed people to Jesus! My Great Uncle Ray Berry passed a week ago today and it hurts that I won't see him til Heaven. He was very much like Uncle Ken. He genuinely loved people and preached the gospel! He ministered to the Deaf community and was able to be a blessing to so many world wide. When I think of getting to Heaven, I know that I get to see Jesus and my Mansion, but I'll be waiting for huge hugs from those people and waiting for them to show me around my Eternity! For now, all I can focus on is making sure that I follow Jesus so that when it's my time I will be able to leave a legacy too.
I am so grateful to have known these six people and others that have passed as well like my grandfather in 94. I'm grateful to have had the Chance to learn from them and see Jesus through them!  Here's to changing the world, one life at a time! Come at me world! Let me show love!

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