Time MARCHes on :)

As I sit here with the blank screen, I remember years ago.  I was sitting in a hospital room singing with my friends and I knew then that it was only of God that this was possible.  I had WAY too many people in the room and we were WAY too loud and God made it possible so that we could minister to others on the floor.  That time was seven years ago.  God had healed me of stage four Ovarian cancer!  What an AMAZING God!!!  Then I think about May of 2008.  God was able to bring two great men home to be with him.  One suddenly and the other was taken from his suffering.  My uncle was one of the greatest men I've ever known.  He always praised His Lord.  He was always ready to sing another verse of a hymn to encourage and He was ready to smack you in the face if you were being stupid.  He was my father's best friend and his encourager.  My dad hasn't found another person to be in that position.  He is still missing a little part of that.  Dylan was my best friend and my encourager.  He would "Punch me in da face" if I wasn't making any sense.  He radiated the love of Christ just like my uncle. I am hoping to one day be fully in control of my grief but I don't know how far away that is.